I WON TICKETS~~!!!

This was what the starting of the email read:

"Congratulations!
You are the lucky winner in A CHINESE TALL STORY GSC Website Contest Round 1.
You have won 2 x Premiere Screening Tickets. Details of screening as follows:..........."

Okay, the rest of it is not that important. Frankly, the email is not that useful after all since I wont be around the time of screening. Yea.....days left to lift off - 3!!!!! Oh gosh, I have my flight ticket, visa, winter jacket( I bought this REALLY cool jacket the other day, more like a trenchcoat)..but my luggage is still not packed. It's gonna be COLD. Lowest temperature will drop to 8 degrees. Excited? OH YEA....although a lot of stress will come afterwards.

And besides that, I got another new stuff, my credit card~! My first ever and it's close to making me eat bread next month. Swept it a a few times, but with BIG amounts. Darn, I'm starting to like that feel. Will try the same stunt another time next month. =D Subscription will be free if spent RM100 and above for the first month....WAH, I'm way qualified for that now.

Now the headache part comes about the luggage that I'll be bringing for the training. 2 weeks mann...that's LONG and in between the really tight training schedule, I have only one day break, and that break, suppose to read up on things. Quite tensed up also lar come to think of it, with the practical and exams. Kinda reminds me of uni or anytime that needed exams and all. What I like bout this whole thing is I get to go overseas. First time going overseas(except for Singapore), then first time on the plane..a lot of first times I guess. Interesting....heck, I'd even gave up the chance to learn up stuff for it~~!!! So that's it for now...I got other stuff that's going on around me for now....but I don't think I want to think too much about it. Will write another time.

Going ga-ga over new "toys"

I'm kinda reliving this 5-year-old-girl-getting-her-first-Barbie feel...Haha, just got myself a new mouse and pendrive. Been looking at my mouse with its blinking LEDs since I plugged it in the laptop, fascinating~~! ( Okok...I sound like some ulu fella with a tech gadget, so what?! ) And the pendrive, cool looking too. Camera batt charging, will upload pics of these new toys the next time. So I've been overspending since I got my pay...what's new eh? I've got to control it. Damn saddening...

Alrite, another story...been chatting a lot with my PM lately. He's going off to US to undergo training and he'll be leaving the project starting next week. It's kinda sad that in this 4 months, I didn't really have the time to actually learn anything much from him except lately. And he had to tell us that he'll be leaving. It's like me loosing a mentor. Was about to officially make him my sifu since he's been in this for years...and he had a reallly REALLY good background on this. He's nice enough to call me up and asked whether I was okay bout him leaving, I did say it'll be a loss, and the new guy that's suppose to replace him, he's not from the same technical background. My PM did ask me to hold back my questions coz might embarassed him with too much of technical stuff. We just laughed over that. Sigh...what a waste. Plus, when the new PM starts for about a week, I'll be off to China already. :P

And I had this chat session with another superior of mine. He turned out to be a little unexpected. Yea, he volunteered to become a match-maker for me. I was taking it as a joke. I don't really know whether he meant it or not also in the end, coz I got disconnected. Well, it came out unexpected coz I never thought that he's the chatty type. It was late, no one else in my list to chat with, so thought I'd drop him a hello. Interesting people I guess. But there's some politics going on that I know of and shall not tell anyone about. So better keep my mouth shut and my ass safe :D

SO that's bout all to write for now. Will add the pics the next time then.

Headache...end of the year sickness....sighh..

At the wake of morning, been sneezing the whole freaking day~!! No idea what's wrong with me just yet. Hope I'm not coming down with a flu or anything. Maybe the radiation is getting to me. Yea, been bugged to get insurance already. Let's see...anyhow also, I have to allocate a certain budget for that for the coming years...it's a 20-year thingy...so thinking hard and thinking far. Still wondering where I'll be 6 months from now. Been talking to me colleague bout life after the project ends...where do we get our extra income? Living off from our basic is just sad...coz in the end of the day, there's really nothing much left of it.

And it's coming to the end of the year already. No...don't think I'm gonna get any bonus, don't think I'll get my OT allowance too. So not that looking forward on that part. Am looking forward for the training though. AND for that, I think I'd need to read up on a lot of stuff...which I havent been doing. Gosh, I wanna relax and not think bout anything now. Headache comes when I think of things, my brain refuse to work well with body today. Darn, think symptoms are getting more REAL!!!!! Not good...not good at all.

Brain really wants to shut down...still thinking how to get myself home later. Can't think..will blog another time.

A blog frm Muar

This is so cool~! I guess this is the only blog I get to do frm outstation with my laptop and with a broadband line. Download speed is exhilaratingly quick~!(ok..i'm not sure that phrase actually is usable or not) Up to 1Mbps. It's the first time I see my DU meter readings reaching such high figure~! I wonder if any of my files would actually finish downloading before going back up to my room. Being a hotel that offers broadband, kinda cool already, I don't mind the room being old and dimensionally wrong. The shape of the room is just wrong.....

Been sometime since I wrote, the latest update. I'M GOING CHINA. Oh yea...there's this 3G training over there at the end of the year. It's freeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzziiiiiiiingggg there...and I'm going there...my goodness, still thinking how to last in the cold cold place. Will be spending my Christmas and New Year there this year. Kinda exciting. First time on a flight, first time out to such a far place,first time in 4 seasoned country...first time for a lot of stuff. Excited~! But before that, there's like so many things to do, I don't know where to start. First off, I need to get my winter clothings...I wished my company had allowance for that. I havent gotten my credit card yet...sigh...been a longgggg wait for that too. Thank goodness that boss stood up for me today and questioned the HR fella bout it. Hahaha...oh yea...the advantages of being the only female engineer...Last week was back in office, met up with another boss and CTO. Looks like all of them know me....surprise surprise. Limelight is good for somethings and it's not always good. Might hurt me in the future too if I slack.

Hmm..other updates include of me meeting up with my ex-housemate, Siew Theng when she was here to watch Snow Wolf Lake. After a while of not meeting everyone, everyone still looks the same. That was what she said...truthfully, it's only half a year since we've graduated, don't think there's much changes with anyone just yet. Too early to tell. And besides that, life's just as boring as it was the last time I wrote. Hmm...thinking back..not really. The job part is getting interesting I guess...the other day we get to enter one of the cabin...get to know more of what exactly I'm doing...which is a new thing for me. That day it took us 5 hours to troubleshoot the site, which in the end of the day, my project manager settled it. We just had a rough idea what the problem was and how to overcome it. But the journey there was an eye-opener to a lot of stuff, mostly it's information given by our project manager regarding stuff that I should know. Ok..shall not dwell into it already. Getting late...going back up to sleep. Woohoo..and one of my cartoons are done downloading...Not bad, not bad at all~!!

Confession of a 23 year old...

I was out with my friends for supper late last nite...well...erm...it's already morning since I went out at about 1AM. Obiously parents are freaking out about it already. Will get to hear some naggings later today. How'd I know?No idea why I woke up in the mid morning just to hear bout their conversation bout me. Okay...they sounded disappointed and worried I guess. To them, what's happening to our daughter recently? To me, GOSH, how I missed my uni life!

One of the guys that I was out with was saying how happy we all were back then...sighh. I know~! So am I happy now? That's a tough one to answer. I'm happy with the job for now, happy that I don't get to stay in most of the time...I'm happy at home most of the time I guess, it would help if my parents were to treat me as an adult and let me handle my life. The part bout restricting where I go and all that, starting to feel the breach in my privacy, but with them, there is no privacy. They are still running through my mails. Sometimes I think I should just shift out...just to runaway from all that. I'm not a regular party goer or anything of that sort, but once in a while I would love to be free to do that. Going for drinks after work, meeting new people...yea,I'm suppose to go find a bf and since my mother don't like me going out and all, I find that an impossible task. And she goes around telling my relatives that no guys likes/wants me and she's still asking me to find a bf...I find my parents are SUPERBLY hard to please. I know the next move is to confront them and tell them what I feel, but that would just make matters worst. Coz knowing my parents, the next thing that comes to mind is who is our daugther mixing with?Getting these ideas that she's big enough to control her own life and daring enough to tell us that. I'm at this point, where I think I still can take it...just that don't know how long....GOSH....I still get phone calls everyday~!Why???? My attitude was that bad that I need monitoring EVERYDAY??? I'm serious bout my work and having the need to travel outstation a lot, I'd take extra care of myself. Why doesn't my parents have that trust in me??This is so frustrating most of the time. I'd blog bout the same old thing like so many times...and as long as I'm under this roof, I'd be in the situation till a very long time. Can't wait till my sis-in-law delivers her baby...yea,my parents would be in Singapore then. My mom would be there for a month. Dad will still be around I guess, probably travelling to and fro from Singapore-Klang. Something to look forward to. Sigh...what a way to start of my Sunday morning...SAD.

Birthday celebration was great~!

So so ...it's like a few days after my birthday. Didn't have the time to blog about it, when I thought I had the time, work came along, then my regular dose of sitcoms and reality shows kicked in, so it got delayed.

This year...something different. My first birthday after graduation. It was really nice for my group of friends to remember and celebrated it the day before in Pyramid. It's like the venue for the 23rd birthday : Sunway Pyramid. Sunday lunch was there so were Monday lunch and dinner. Sunday lunch was with my uni friends in Kim Gary. Monday was lunch with my colleagues and dinner was with a good friend. I missed the gathering on Tuesday though, coz of WORK~! I had to miss my own birthday celebration coz of work..this is sooooo sad. But then again, can't help it. Suddenly needed to go Terengganu. Didn't expect the gifts either. It was nice. I'm putting in some pics.

My cake with uni friends. A very nice one, with peach in it.

Me with my cake.

Gonna be this 2 pics for now. Having some problems uploading for the time being. And...my blog has changed face again.... something went wrong with my previous template..too lazy to look for the code to correct. So changed it. :P

It's my Birthday~!

Turning older today...feels good to know that my friends rememberd it. Been getting sms-es since morning..which is kinda nice. :) Wouldn't expect many to remember though. It's gonna be a luncheon with colleagues and dinner with friend today. Yesterday was with my group of close friends back in uni. Really nice to meet up with them after a few months. Too bad some of them are not around, like Siew Theng in Penang, Zheng...lost in some other part of the world :P, Wai Ling being busy with her music classes...hmmm...i wonder why Tio din show up though.

Was a short break...it was long...but it felt like so short. Went PD and back. Nothing much on this time when we went. Staying indoors most of the time. Don't have pics to upload though since most of the pics taken not from my camera. Will get to upload once I get more pics. :) So that would be all for this time..detecting difficulties to type with my backspace key giving me problems. Sighh....

It's been a year~~!

Oh yea..it's a year since I started the blog, not exactly, it's a year and 10 days. :P I admit,, I don't update it much till...recently. Why is that eh? After uni life, it's working life and big part of my time is put in there already. I can officially announce, I'M OVERWORKED and UNDERPAID~! But who cares? It's this world where you can't complain bout it much, if you don't want to work, no problem, the company could find many more in the line to replace you. Yea, life's sad when it comes to the part where I work my weekends and don't get paid for it~!
Unfairness....and I still don't understand why my company is still appealing to the rest of my colleagues.

Oh well...it's a long holiday, considering that I took my unpaid leave tmr. Yea, kinda stupid to do it when I seriously have no where to go and nothing to do tmr. But the thought of going to office and work alone, kinda bores me there...and the latest news was the project will end by year end. That means it's no more Sunway office for me? Seriously, I'm damn blur bout it...Will need to send in an email to ask. But I like what I've been through the past 3 months +, coming into my 4th months at work. Don't really know how to do a lot...since I think I'd been going on and on with the same test and procedures, that I don't think there's something new unless problem occurs. I kinda looked forward for an outing with any senior engineers. I want to learn as much as I can from them before it all ends...but possibility of that is kinda low. Haha..and not to mention, the recent SMS bout me being involve in the affair thingy. If it comes out real from any of the wives of the senior engineers...I'm gonna just make the situation worst if there's an outing after all. Sigh..that SMS still bothers me...

Anyway, Deepavali day. Went visiting to an old friend's place in Shah Alam. Was nice to meet up with a couple of friends to catch up. It's always interesting to get together and find out what's going on with who. I just recently know that one of my friend is training to be a pilot, another opened a computer shop and another opened a tuition centre. Yea, got to pay them all a visit someday. Alrite..it's time to go meet old friends. Should end here for now.

Who's at fault? The husband,the wife or the mistress?

The idea for this blog came in when I shockingly received an SMS asking me whether I'm involve in some secret affair with someone's husband. It ended with a threat that if I don't speak the truth, I'd be in trouble. I was a little shocked..then the images of my friends who are married came into mind...not much of them and I don't know any of their wives. So I kinda narrowed down to 2. Don't really know how to figure out which one. OR it might just be a wrong number. Anyways, I don't feel threaten though since I'm not involve in any secret affairs. Already an understood statement, married guys...out of bound. The "M" word.

So, if you put urself in that wife's shoes...would you be confrontational with the husband and mistress? OR you would confront the mistress and not let your husband know? I don't seem to have any of my married guy friends asking me on whether their wives spoke to me...so if the SMS was really meant for me, the wife here chose the latter.

Why the mistress? Aren't the husbands at fault here? They are wrong at the first place for not being able to provide security for their wives. They are wrong for being with the mistress. They come up with thousand and one excuses for their involvement with the mistress and for a wife who desperately want to save the marriage would forgive and forget. Who gets the bad name in the end? You go figure....( With this said, I am to STRESS that I do not support the mistress and the husband)

So that's it for now. Kinda tired from my outstation trip. Will write again when I'm bored I guess.

Shopping...shopping...and...broke~!

Alriteyyy...when there was no one amongst my friends knew that I'd been blogging, it's okay to not blog for like 3 months or 3 years~!When I have the ONE reader ( Yes..it's you Zheng~!), he will be ther to remind me that I need to update it. Gee, thanks I guess, my first ever reader. Flattered .. :D

Anyways, it's been 11 days since the last blog. Nothing much happened. Told you my life was mundane and stuff I do, just bores any other living soul in this world...OH WAIT, I forgot the part bout me overspending the past week. Sigh, been suck into this tendency to SHOP~! My gosh, the past week, I had bought myself stuff that I don't really need. New pair of sandals which I don't think I'll wear much, thank goodness I did not go for the heels~! A new bag, a few new tops, a pair of jeans....this is excessive spending. NEED TO STOP~! Heck, my outstation claims for this month is so darn quiet. I practically used up all the claims in the shopping spree I got myself in...and it's not even CNY. It's Deepavali + Raya....I'm one lost fella who went shopping coz of one word : SALE~! It's crazy how this little voice in my head never said anything the past 22 years and decided to speak so loudly this year. It's slowly echoing in my head : sale, sale, sale , sale ...SALE~~!!!!! Weird...you know how you can always balance out the pros and cons in anything that you do? That word came and clouded all of that thought and it's like the devil taking over~!

And stuff in office, been kinda quiet too. But getting to know my malay colleagues, so been typing a lot of broken BM in YM lately. Kinda weird to ask me to write in BM nowadays. Even the other day when I was writing the police report for the accident, was kinda weird. My partner was driving the other day when a small rock kinda flew off from the front lorry and chipped one small portion of the windscreen of the car. Boss said must lodge a report, both of us head to the police station and it was story-time, although kinda hard to express it in BM, we ended up saying ( direct translation ): A speeding lorry went over a road filled with small rocks and therefore all rocks were flying and one of it hit our windscreen. Yea, sounded crappy and the policemen were laughing at the statement, but who cares, we just needed that report so we're off the hook.

Wohoo...yess~!! going to be outstation next week. Can't wait. Can't be sitting around in office too much. Far too dreadful to pass 8 hours staring at the PC with nothing much to do. If they give me the time off, I'll end up somewhere spending again~! Yea, was doing just that the last Friday. Went all the way up to Cyber to meet up my ex-colleagues during training for lunch. Well, meeting them was nice, lunch was free too. Nice bunch of ppl, at least there were more female engineers there than my working place now. :P But all attached and one is married recently.So are all the ppl in my workplace...except 2 senior engineers and one junior. Hmm..I guess I'm stopping for now. Next update, after my outstation trips. :D Adios~!

Things you see on the road...

WOoohooOooo .... been at work for 2 months plus and I've traveled half of Malaysia already! That's 7 out of 13 states. Well, since being the girl, I can only travel to Peninsular, so that would make 7 out of 11 then. Whoa, can't believe it too.

It's interesting what you get to see on the road. Besides the animals running around or strolling along the road, people driving in the car also has their own "activities". I just happen to see a guy reading while driving~! With his book on the steering and his earphone plugged in, he was cruising the highway...I wonder if the concentration is really that good and he could really multitask. My partner was eating her brownies while cruising the highway. All I could do was drink water while I drive. Not good at multitasking when driving, even tuning the radio will distract my concentration. :P Takes experience to do that I suppose...or I'm just that bad.

Talking bout animals...each site visit is like a visit to the "open zoo". The most common animals that I've seen are chickens, cows, goats and monkeys. These animals are always in sight. Other animals are like wild boars, goose, ducks, monitor lizards, dogs, cats, squirrels, snakes and eagle! Well, as much as I'd like to see them running around happily enjoying themselves, a lot of times I'd see them dead on the road resulted from been ran over by lorries or big trucks. Kinda sad, I was at this site the other day, I managed to avoid the lizard that decided to cross the road that one particular day. By the time I turned back, that poor lizard was already dead. Another round on the same road, the poor lizard was squashed already. All that happened in less than an hour~! So all animals that crosses the free way are at this high risk of death. Can't help all of it, but will try to avoid all that crosses path with me....BUT BUT....think I killed one lizard the other day. Felt really bad...but I seriously did not see it and it was too late to avoid it. Oh well, guess would need to be alert of that next time.

Besides animals and people, seen many quite breath-taking sights The seasides, the caves, the moutains, and the trees~! The Gua Musang trip was interesting. The caves, just magnificent! We've been on some sites that's along the South China Sea. Interesting also. Sites at the east coast. The kampung sites are also an eye-opener. Don't play-play. People stay in wooden houses but on one particular corner of their roof, you'd see a satellite dish.Yea...people in kampung watch ASTRO~!! I was surprised of course, at a place where there's no wireless reception, people are that in-touch with technology~! :P Probably I'm the "ulu" one in that case.

Alrite...that would be all to blog about.

Remembering birthdays~!

Oh dear...it's already October! And it's the birthday streak in early October. Most of the Librans are already so far away, so I guess the need of me joining any celebration is eliminated. I guess the feeling is great if you have people remembering your birthday and all. The best would be people celebrating it with you...but since most of them are already attached, guess they won't have problem finding for people to celebrate with them. So it comes back to the person I guess. To me, birthdays are a special occasion. To some other, birthday is just another day. So birthday is a day to treat myself better in all ways. And I think this year my bday falls somewhere near or during the Raya holidays. I'm fine with people who don't remember it, I guess I'm forgetting a lot of birthdays too. Not sure it's the part that I'm getting older or the part that I'm drifiting apart from everyone already. Yea, now I understand how being at work can drift someone apart...

Oh ya...talk bout work. Going to be packed up with sites for the coming week. So happy that September is gone. Don't think I'd mention this in my blog, but the end of Sept, got into this minor accident. Some car bang into my car, well, both side is at fault, but it really did freak me out then. Unlucky month, just hope that it's gone and never returns. And I've just got called for interview with this big company. Sigh...everyone is asking me to try it out, I'm also thinking about it and scheduled it to be on the Friday next week. You know, my current company is not that bad to start off with. Just the part I wanted more was the training. The benefits sounded okay since my team leader is still at his job till now.

So, it's a quiet Friday nite. I seriously should plan out something for weekend. Or just sleep through it...we'll see how things go tomorrow then. Getting a shut eye already.

*Yawn* boring day at work...

So it's been 2 months ++ since I've started working. It has been fun...kinda enjoy the traveling when you get to see a lot of stuff that you wouldn't thought you'd see in a million years...well...not that long I guess, at least I wouldn't have thought I'd travel so far for work. So it's been east-coast to southern of the Peninsular of course. Being a female restricted myself from traveling to East Malaysia, Already said and no changes would be made, yea...he did say something bout him being sexist but since he's doing it for the safety of us, guess I should be thankful.

Anyways...been interesting to visit to other states also. C'mon, who'd imagine, me, someone who doesn't even step out of the house for like weeks and suddenly I'm around peninsular Malaysia going here and there. Hmm...people are really envious of my job.. Frankly, the job, is not that hard, it's just taking a lot of time especially when you travel. Don't think I have anything nice to upload at the moment. No nice pics, no time to take nice pics.

Sigh..gonna make this short. Going to go off soon enough. I'll write when I get in tomorrow. Just thought I'd write since so free now.

First ever day off...

Well, when everyone's all jealous of me having the day off, I was not that happy bout it. Day off suppose to mean just relaxing and sitting back. Frankly, been doing that for the past few months before I started working. So kinda bored with that kind of lifestyle. Crazy eh? People are working like mad wishing to have their day off, here's me wanting to work. :P

Anyway, since had the time, went out to meet ex-roomie. Angie. One happily married woman. Just recently heard that she might not take up the engineering field after all after studying for so long. It's true when she said, it really depends what you really want to do with your life. I chose the field because I want the experience. She chose not, coz her current commitments are enough to occupy her time. We all think she dun really need to work already since her husband can actually support her. But being a woman of this age, I think career plays a major role is my life now...since I'm single and all. She was surprised that I ended up as an engineer, she had this thinking that I'll end up to become some businesswoman meeting clients everywhere. hahah...well...i might start off an engineer, who knows, i'll end up as a businesswoman in the future. :D

So that's bout all to blog about for now. Sigh..tonite's the badminton match. It's gonna be sooo embarassing. Been ages since I've held the racquet. Playing against an old friend. It's gonna be a laughing scenario tonite.

Surprised...

Hmm..not sure where did my previous 2 posts went to...sigh....typed like a lot just to know it was lost? Kinda sad. Anyway, this will be the first post that I add when I'm in cybercafe. Yeap, in Kuantan, doing file transfer back to office. Yea, another site visit. Kinda nice also this time coz Sih Sin and I met up with Yet Hui and Lee. we had this seafood dinner. It was quite delicious~! And we're staying in a hotel that's not that bad either. Kinda cool to have so many people together. Kinda makes it like a trip more than work
Anyways...will make a move dy...will add more entry when I'm back. Hoping for a good weekend.

Short weekend~~

Hmm..is this the beginning of my supposedly "busy" schedule? I don't know. Was actually scheduled to be outstation since last week...sites are all down. I'm hoping all of it are still the same today. Heard senior engineers here want to teach us stuff, don't want to miss that. Was working the last Saturday. Can't wait to take time off... haha...then I'll be having a long weekend!!

Anyway, was at dinner with boss last Friday. Was an interesting dinner I would say...Kinda saw the relax side of those senior engineers. Hahahah..and I got to know a lot of stuff also from the outing...muahahaha...will just keep it to myself for the time being. "Dangerous" to share it over the net. The dinner was the followed by after dinner drinks. Just had a couple glasses of beer...and they were surprised that I could drink...hmmm...it was just 5 max glasses. Definitely wasn't drunk...was just red. Boss thot I couldn't take it dy...I was okay..only started to feel a bit of dizziness, after a round of talk and rest, then I could actually go on..if I wanted to..but chose not... :P Can't drive dy, had to ask my colleague to send me home after that.

And after that was a working Saturday....tiring...short Sunday. Met up with Mun Leng and Jacqueline...just had my usual whining bout how crappy life is at the moment. And I'm hearing ppl getting hooked up already and still I'm single. Well..should just keep to the part that I establish my career and wait and see what happens when I turn 30. And Jacqueline is afraid of turning old already...OH DEAR, we're still 20 something, need we think that far just yet?? I don't know. So that's bout it, work work~~!

Merdeka Day at Port Dickson~

Short holiday trip down to PD the past Merdeka hols. REALLY short considering it's a one night one day trip. Was down there with a bunch of friends and a couple of new friends. Quite a memorable one I guess, since it's the first time I'm there. Forgot to pick up sand for my collection. Nvm..I'm hoping there's a second time.

Met up with Pei Jet and Mellisa's colleagues: Eric, Jonathan and Thomas. Quite a funny bunch. Fully English speaking sessions. Havent had that since sometime already. Oh wait...didn't have that since primary school! Gosh...had been THAT long. Too bad that Jonathan had to suffer a fall on the day that we're leaving. Only had a brief session of crap-talking with the other group of ppl. Ya...enter room, sit a while, play cards, sing bday song for Hoe Kit and Tony, then cut cake, ate it, had wine..then return to my unit and had sumore wine. My face was red and as usual, people thought I was drunk and treat me as one. No matter how many times I told them I was not, no one wanted to believe it. Well, that was enough of alcohol for that time anyway...havent been taking any since months. Not sure my alcohol tolerance will degrade or not. :P

Anyway, quiet day in office, the superiors are not here, guess everyone's taking their own sweet time to get to office. Still hoping I don;t get assigned to somewhere coz would need to work the weekends if I did. Plus, boss is buying dinner tonight, but it'll be me with a bunch of 30 year olds having Italian food~! I wonder how'd that would go. Not sure yet, won't know until team leader arrives. SO that's bout all for now. I don't have any pics to look at the moment. I hope I get to see them.

Interesting weekend and now back to work~!

Oh yea...coming to the end of the month...which means...PAYCHECK time~~~!!! wooohoooo...not expecting a lot though, since I started a week later into the month. But the joy of receiving my own hard earn cash~! Well..considering all the debts to settle, there's nothing left in that pay anyway. BUT still..it's my first OFFICIAL pay! ( The training one doesn't count, that was like 3 months and what I got was still lesser than my full pay ...if i'm given that full amount )

Anyways, interesting weekend. Went to Windmill in SS12 to makan and bid farewell to Mr Zheng...he's off to UK to further his studies. And it was also a gathering of a few of us who havent seen each other since...months. Great to see everyone in good shape. And hearing that one of my friends will be heading South Pole for his research. Interesting eh? He'll get to see penguins for real~! But that will happen next year. Another friend got himself into another industry. The Oil & Gas, he just got his "passport", it's more of a safety course. Gone through simulations of helicopter overturning, crashing into the swimming pool and ....some other emergency situation. Sounded quite interesting I must say.

Then it was Sunday. Shopping day? I din really shop, just bought a pareo with Pei Jet. She's the one with the shopping spree I guess. Was at The Curve....first time~! Nice place. Wanna go there again some other time. The flea market is good too.

So the assignments are out. Heading down south today with my colleague. But might be spending merdeka day there, not sure, but it'll be the first celebrated outstation ...fuuhh...said it as if I actually celebrate it.. :P Well, it's a holiday which I wasnt in Klang Valley...just put it that way. So wanted to join my friends in PD,but work comes first. Now it's just sitting around and waiting for time to go off.. Let's hope I get to come back tomorrow..

Freedom..for a day !!!

Well, it's more of peace and quiet at home for a day. Sad to say, granduncle had passed away and parents had to make their way to Kelantan to attend the funeral...That only means FREeeeeeeDom for that short time. Sigh, so disappointed at myself for feeling this way... but then again, it was time for granduncle to go since he's old and with Alzheimers. Better for all.

So...with parents not being around, obviously unleashing the devil in me. Didn't know how desperately I needed that freedom till today. But it has an expiry date though. Yea...by tmr it's all gone.......... So wat's up for today? Erm..nothing much, my 2nd interview is this evening provided that I don't get sent off to somewhere else. If I don't then it's just gonna be interview, then dinner..then balik....or probably get a junior to yumcha or something like that. But I know it's gonna be checkup time tonite. Hmm... no chance to stay home late also. Sighh.... plus it's a working day tomorrow.

I don't really know what else to put in already. Already told my friend bout the date from hell I had over the weekend. I just want to put that behind me..and hoping that he gets the hint.

So where do I go from here?

There seems to be so much of the same thing that's happening to me...It gets repetative and I seem to fall into the same thing over and over again... and yet it's still a tough journey to find love. Been watching this show that shows successful women who went dating online coz they gave up looking for love among them so internet was the best way to do it. Hope I don't need t o resolve to that. Anyway, was on an official date today (think it's the first where a SINGLE guy asks me out and we went out just the 2 of us :- meal, movies, walking @ shopping mall) . I wouldn't say we click that much. Since we were brought up differently, mixed with different people all our life, there's this mismatch in frequency and chemistry between both of us. Probably takes time to develop the feeling, but I guess with my head and heart thinking of someone else, that's kinda hard to happen. But that someone else is someone I will never get hold off...darn...I had to make things complicated in my life.

The date was in Midvalley by the way. We ate and then watched Bewitched. Erm, one thing for sure, I can surely tell you that he reminds me a whole lot of my friend...as in size and some part of his attitude. But he's full of philosophy in life and he quoted the same line as my dad~!! In my heart, I was screaming "OMG~!I'm dating my dad~!" Well, don't get me wrong, nothing wrong bout my dad, just that the idea of him being the dad, and I'm controlled and without freedom. NOT GOOD! I knew instantly we don't click but I know we can be friends. And we shall keep it that way. I'm not sure he's pursuing me or just wanting to be friends...since I'm new in office and he sounded like he needed more people on his side in that cold cold working environment. He's been calling and messaging for the past 2 weeks. And he keeps on saying that girls should make up and dress up when going out...Frankly, I was offended. I din say it out...but I did tell him it's not my thing and I'm comfortable just the way I am. If he really has a problem with that, there's nothing I can do about it. Language barrier, not much though, but I do prefer an English speaking partner....well, more English-educated partner to be exact I guess. I don't think I can fit into his Chinese-ed world... and I have this feeling that he's gonna be those "sticky" type of partner. So I think the next step, I shall just remind him that we're friends.

And in the mean time. I need to clear off some messed up feelings I'm having. I don't get it when all the compatible guys are so out of my reach...WHY? Will I ever find him? I think this is a question that's the most difficult to answer than any interview question~!! So, where would I end up? Where do I go? Hmmm.....

I have no life...

Kinda sad, when there's a suggestion to watch a movie, I need to ask back, what's showing? Imagine, there used to be like weekly cinema outing just to catch the latest movies..especially opening night. Friend was teasing that I've only started work like 2 weeks and already felt that, he was working for the past ...about 5 years I guess....and he lost life sooo long dy. Well, guess u really need to be in that situation to feel it.

SO...this is my 2nd week....already Friday. I got back on track with my date and time. Used to be so lost about that..since I was wasting it all away. I finally get call back for 2nd interview. My first 2nd interview experience...and it's with a gwai lou. Just want that experience. Don't think I'm jumping ship just yet. This seems to be a field that can grow in... but will check out what that company has to offer. More security for my parents for sure. Shift job, indoors only. Sounds a lot more boring than this. I'll just go there and see what happens. Only told a couple of my friends bout it, even at work lar...but I hope they dun tell boss la.

Sigh..another super early day in office, almost 830 dy..think i hear footsteps or not.... I'm gonna blog every morning that I'm here early la. Want to get a wireless LAN soon lar. So can online from the lounge area. But no money input just yet...so will KIV a lot of stuff. And that should be all for this entry.

Work work...

It's funny how you want something so much that when you get it, you prefer of not having it. Havent felt that at work yet, i feel i have a lot to learn and things will get pretty interesting...well..at least for now. Coz i'm new in this, and new input just gives that adrenalin rush to know more. But i gueess, once I get as old as some senior engineers here, guess that will be the time I'll stop...my gosh...i just heard they make like a quarter of a million in 4 months..!!!! 5 figure paycheck....something to look forward to after all. haha..IF i stay in the line. dunno yet....i might, since it's not that bad after all rite...ppl here are nice. willing to teach. So it's all ok...FOR THE TIME BEING. I'm not in that work stress i see them in. I see the senior engineer cracking his head just to plan out something. And losing that much hair~~!!!

So this marks my 2nd week of work. One week in Sunway. First week with my new car!! yea...drove to work today. muahahaha..did just fine. Parking are ample in the building..coz it's freaking expensive~!! but i heard i get to claim...so dun care! convenience sake. Everyone's like so excited for me...haha...but it's time I get independant la...plus, I drove the company car to KL the other day. I got my mom all freaked out.Could see the expression on her face. She's frantically searching for my cousin to get my personal life insurance.

So..this will be another day at work. Reached office like so early, an hour before time. How I wished I could clocked all this. Anyway..hoping for a good day today....

The Continuation...

What to say? Once again disappointed with the uni management, but don't really care once the event is over. It was a merry event, everyone getting back together. Everyone was chatting away during the speeches. As I said last time, I knew when the uni song plays, I will start crying. Tried holding my tears back. What a wonderful 5 years... been through it all, the happy, the sad, the stress, the satisfaction~! Although after the convo, didn't get to take pics with all the people I knew...I'm sure we'll have a chance to do it again anytime in the future. It was indeed a memorable convo...first time in my life I was holding 2 big bouquets of flowers. A bouquet from my friend and one from my parents. It was then close to 3 hours of photo taking. Oh ya, old friends came to visit and I got two more graduation presents.2 bears...

Need to check out my pathetic scroll... ( as in the official cert after that 5 years of studying ) , it's like half of an A4 cardboard like card, with a few sentences. Nevermind that lar, guess the hi-tech part is the E-Scroll. Yea, I have a digital version of my scroll...Not that I'm gonna forward it out or anything already. Came a bit too late also rite? I could have used it for job application last time. Anyway, it's displayed on the living room cabinet already. Oh ya, had my studio pic taken in Singapore. ..can't wait to see the pics. Waiting for my bro to send it back to me. Wonder how I looked with the awkward posing sessions. So proud of myself at the graduating ceremony... Don;t ask me why, it's just the feeling. The sense of achievement I guess. It was a tough journey and it was great to have the ceremony to mark the end of it. Although not that happy with that arrangement of the graduates heading up to receive the scrolls. No acknowledgement of the Class of Degree that I achieved. That's the down part of it.

Alrite...got some chores to settle....

WoooHooo....first week of work~!

Oh yea...incredible week. The week didn't start out right. First day of work, awkward day. No one asked me to join them for lunch. So much for the welcome eh? But that was first day...trying to adapt with the time, got so sleepy with the docs that I have to read, I think I dozed off somewhere in the middle. The introduction part was a bit weird...all like din expect me to join as RF Engineer. Think some of them was surprised. Heard from a staff that I might be the only female engineer...well, not sure bout that, but I know there's a lot of male engineers. At the end of the day, not much of communication established...The next day, better...coz since I talked to one of them, he was nice enough to ask me to join them for lunch. Haha...what a small world, he happens to be from my hometown. So we had lunch and chit chat and the get-to-know-you small talk. I was talking to a group of 5 and I only know like 2 of their names. What do you expect? It was like more than 20 names for one time...and they had to know my one name. It was bad haze day on that day. Can still remmeber their conversation about it. Haha, that was 2nd day and by the 3rd, I was off to client site to work. And I think it's gonna be a long time....might be there the whole of probation....tilll.............long long time. kinda sad that I really din get to experience the stuff the head of department was telling me. Hmm...if no other fresh job offers comes in, think I'd settle for this already. Kinda sad that the interview I went didn't turn out good. Sigh.... it's gonna be a 3-year bond if I stick to the company. We'll see how that goes....but since started with the client site, had been meeting up with a lot of uni people. haha...talking bout small world eh? So that was first week of work, nothing much to sum it up, just pratically waste time in office. Should start to become busy soon. And I aim to pick it all up ASAP. Ok..enough bout work...

Convoooo...came n gone. Nothing much to say bout it, but I can say I missed out a lot of picture taking with some friends I wanted to take pic with. Sigh, but hoping can retrieve all pics taken that day. Will ever be memorable.... Aiks...so wanted to go on with this entry, but it's way past my bedtime, will be crashing down on my bed. Will continue this later...


TO BE CONTINUED....

Busssyyyy week ahead

So this is the final week that I'll go through as an unemployed graduate. Frankly, I'm excited bout the job. Although not paying me good enough ( considering all the bills that I am to pay for the coming months ...kinda gets to me I guess ) , but I hope it'll be a good experience. Went for an interview today, not sure which way it went, might think that it was a good one, might be a bad one. Chances to get in there will be slim I guess, since I'm up against all those more experienced people. But in the mean time, will not stop looking.

Anyway, it's convo weekend ahead~! Yeahhh~!! Quite enthusiastic bout it...can't wait to see all of them, and actually hoped that I could stay longer to hang out with my friends. Still considering whether to go down Malacca on Friday. Since a friend of mine decided to send me something ( I'm guessing it's a bouquet ), the delivery will be on Friday and someone would have to be home to take it. Quite sweet of him to send me something before leaving for Japan. So touched by these little gestures sometimes. It's a week of chores and a quick trip to Singapore to have the family picture taken. Getting my car also ~~!!! Can't wait...only down thing bout it was the petrol price increase. Stupid time to have that. Anyway, going to be a tiring week ahead. I better catch some sleep. Woke up way too early today....getting some shut eye.

I'm EMPLOYED!!!

Oh yea..the long awaited status. Was surprised to get the call to ask me to go work on monday...yea...MONDAY! That's like 2 days notice? At least a week or so, I need the time to prepare and all. No...this company decided to finally call me to work for a small amount of pay but I think with a bundle of work. Still waiting for my another interview on monday, hope I get through that and it'll all be cleared....YEAH, if that company says OK, I'm on my way to another place to work. But for safety and peace of mind ( yea...parents will continue with their never ending breach to my life story) , I'll do this first while waiting.

Talking bout me being able to drive, sad sad...almost bang something today. Concentration wasn't there. Sigh, and that cost me my driving freedom. But it was really creepy, got me real scared too. Hah...but nothing compared to the ghost story I heard over the radio last night. Really sent the shivers to my bones, till I needed to chat with someone to distract myself. Anyway, talking bout cars, going to get mine soon. Dad plans on a small car for me, friends recommending me the other. I don't mind any of it. Just have a car, and it's gonna be automatic. Yea, cuts down my mother's worries bout me driving on the road. You should hear her comments on my driving the other day. Either too fast, or I'm too reckless or I'm not fit to drive. Been hearing that since..FOREVER. Everytime my mom's there, she'll end up with the same comments. That's all I hear. And they get all worried too much bout my work and all. Heck, she's more interested to read what my contract has to say and read it first. Probably they didn't have that experience with my brothers. I'm kinda like their first-time thing. Yea, the fact that they "escort" me to all my interviews kinda proves that. AND the MANY MANY comments I hear from them. No matter how many times I said I'll be okay and I know what to do, they'll repeat it all over again. I guess it's a blessing but people think I depend on them too much. Frankly, I do want to be independent. Just that my parents don't seem to want it to be that way. So, I'll be stuck with them for quite sometime. My mom even said if I'm posted to work at another state, she suggest that my dad comes with me!! Oh no...I'm crossing my fingers and hopes that she's joking. But for now, I'll please them by letting them do what they want. Feeling the choke already and guess once I start working, it's the best time to tell them to lay back and rest. I can be independent. I can live on my own... ( well...not for the first few months la...pay so little... :P ) I promise to make the best out of the work that I do...it's a personal pledge.

So until I start working...it's gonna be a busy week next week coz convo is coming up!! Gee...I wonder if anyone else has interesting news to update me with by then. So that's all lar...flu is getting to me..time to sleep!!

Killing me softly....

Sigh, the boredom is doing just that!! Can't believe I've been just bumming around since May!! Yeap, still jobless with no directions. Juniors are worrying bout their future already since this senior of theirs with good results but no job. Misconception. That's what people relate to jobless graduate these days since the bad press about it. C'mon, first thing that strikes your mind when you hear bout unemployed graduate : ATTITUDE PROBLEM. In my case, well, there is some truth in it I guess.

It was since that one interview where the interviewer shared his experience, it got me thinking that I would wan to head to the direction that I think I should be in: The Telecommunications Industry. With that, obviously then comes all the choices and companies that I can actually apply for. The problem was, the jobs I wanted, no publication of any vacancies. Sad eh? When I saw the vacancy on it, without hesitation, resumes all posted in. Went for interviews. Now I'm just waiting for call backs...crossing my fingers and hoping that I get them by next week.

Part bout the attitude problem, people say I'm just choosy. Probably I am. The other day, there's 2 recruitment agencies called up.

First call....

Recruitment agency #1 : Hello, we see that you might just be still unemployed. There's this opening for ...erm...Admin Assistant. Would you be interested?

Me: What's the job scope like?

Recruitment agency #1: It's all writing on ISO stuff.

Me: Sorry not interested.

Second call...

Recruitment agency #2: Hi, this is *some name*, we see that you applied for engineering position, but no jobs for that, but we do have one internally. We are looking for a recruitor. Would you be interested?

Me: What's the job scope like?

Recruitment agency #2: It's you interviewing people for our clients, mainly telecommunications company.

Me: Sorry not interested.

Recruitment agency #2: Ermm...is it? Why leh? (acting cute with the voice)

Me: (duh..!! ) I rather be working in your client companies rather than being the one interviewing new people for them. ** Well..didn't really say that...I just said I wasn't interested.

So does this two situations make me a choosy person? Some might say yes, some might think not. But what I have in mind was, after 5 dreadful and torturing years in uni for that piece of paper, I think I would rather work with a company that is on par with my qualifications. Need I say more??

It's a matter of trust...

Incident #1
Was at a hypermarket the other day when I left my take-away pizza at the customer service counter before one of the employees mistakenly gave it away to some other fella. It was mixed up with another pizza bag. The most absurd thing was another employee actually passed me the other bag and said sorry that they had it mixed up. I was like "You don't seriously expect me to take this!!" Kinda raised my voice a little, didn't really like the facial expression that employee was giving me. Well, the girl took over and said she'll pay me back for the lost, it was then settled.

Incident #2
Had to put my bag at a counter in a shopping place in KL. Had my newly bought newspaper put on top of my bag since I can't put it in the bag. Walked anf grabbed the stuff I wanted and went back for my bag. Everything was okay till I got on the bus, realised that my newspapers was flipped through!! How did I know? Well section 2 wasn't detached when I left it at the counter.
Can't do anything, only realised it when I got on the bus.

This serves as a reminder to not utilised this service whenever possible. Don't have that trust in them anymore. Just couldn't thought of it happening. I mean, where's the ethics??!! Was kinda pissed in both incidents. The first was caused by that male employee, how could he be so cocky since it's his fault at the first place!! It was him who gave it to the wrong fella! I pitied the girl who would had to dig out from her own pocket to pay me. Compensation was made, and that girl was very sorry and apologized, so I didn't make a big fuss after that. But WHAT kind of attitude to show when you've made a mistake!! Don't think that male employee apologized at the first place! And he didn't even seem to bother when the girl was asking him what to do next.
The second incident was caused that guy flipped my papers!! It then makes me think, what else did the guy do? Look through my bag?! How could this be happening?! Sighh..

What are you waiting for??

Familiar phrase eh? Just got the mood to suddenly write this, friend was telling me to go sleep to forget bout the hunger I'm feeling, when I pushed off that idea, hence that familiar phrase came into the scene...which then led me to think, "Yea, what exactly am I waiting for?"

To begin to answer that, I just have that few thigns in my list now:
1) to get some reply ( yes or no, interview or total reject ) for the jobs I've applied for
2) to get a new car ... if that's ever possible with my unemployed state
3) my niece to get back from Singapore, can't imagine how much I missed her!
4) my downloads to finish ( sigh, getting lesser sources to do that already )
5) my friend to clear off the air bout some rumours that I've been hearing, ( not that big of a deal also if he would tell me on the phone, but he insisted..so I'm waiting for the day he comes to find me then )
6) my parents to stop nagging me bout almost anything
7) ( this slot was "an idea to write my blog")
8) my old friends to chat longer with me
9) people to stop going ga-ga over the new release of Star Wars
10) the best way to cure my boredom at home!!!

Can only think of that 10 at the moment, don't get me started on things bout the future, the list will go on and on and on. Interesting to see my friend started with his blog site today, he should have started it like ages ago. He's someone I really look up to back in my uni days and he's always been there for me when I have those sucky times trying to interpret misleading signs left by guys. Well, the reason he has that blog was to become another version of "jeffooi". If you're Malaysian, and regular with the blogging thingy, you would know who is Jeff Ooi. Anyhow, if you happen to be reading this and don't have a clue, will leave you with their blogsite links after this post. Guess it's been a tiring day also, was with parents to settle their visas and their stuff before heading to China early next month. Before I wrap it up, back to the title again,come to think of it, it could also be used as an encouragement too. So when you, at the moment, asked me that, I would say, "nothing...coz it's time to sleep." :) Have a good day tomorrow everyone...especially you!

Links
Utopia.net
Jeff Ooi

A poem for you....

Okay, wasn't that much of a productive day, still suck at my driving, need to get it right the next time already, cause I want to start driving by myself. Anyway, today had another round of nagging from parents. Desperately need to hear bout job interviews soon...probably a job offer. :D Keeping my fingers crossed then.

Anyway, got me thinking bout old times when parents started with the nagging. Kinda miss my Cyber home, where I have the freedom to do what I want....everything seems restricted at home. And was doing some searching over some old stuff I have the other day, and surprisingly, I found this poem that I composed for a guy that I happen to like at that time...( fyi, it didn't work out, coz the guy felt like we're better off as friends) I think I wrote this when he was feeling down at that time, kinda gave me that inspiration(it was never shown to anyone before this, thought I'd share it here) , and I kinda feel like dedicating it to a friend that happens to be sad over a small argument with his girlfriend. This may suck, so here goes:

Friends come, friends go,
Not many that actually follow,
Just wanted you to know,
I'll be the friend to share your sorrow.

Things you do, things you say,
Never fails to brighten up my day,
I will always hope and pray,
For your happiness everyday.

Being a joker at times,
I know it's not a crime,
Craps I learn to accept,
Coz knowing you is no regret.

When things don't seem right,
Face it with all your might,
With your friends at your side,
Supporting you all day and all night.

Remember what I told you,
Keep this poem, oh, please do,
Just a reminder to you,
Our friendship is indeed true.

Haha...it may suck but copyright reserved! Not much of a poet. Never came across my mind that someone whom I thought was happy-go-lucky would feel so sad, I could even sense it while chatting with him through Yahoo! messenger. But anyway, I'm hoping that he has a brand new happy day tomorrow. I hope everyone does too...

Interesting + "interesting" day...

Hmm....interesting day today, had my first job interview ever...it was more of a chatting session, asking me bout uni life, why this and why that...he asked how long I spent online on the average, and I said 6 hours, there was a surprised look on his face, hmm, I wonder...if I would say more than that, don't really know how he'll respond. Anyway, the surprising question was asking me "You know what's Ohm's Law?"....he asked it in a teasing way, not sure what he wanted, came as shock also, ( Erm, I was expecting like other Laws or Theorems) . But I did manage to answer that. Then the interview lasted for half an hour. Quite an interesting experience. But working in Putrajaya was not really what I had in mind...and the people around me are talking as if I've got the job, well..truthfully, I thought my performance was a so-so only...and knowing the people I'm up against for this vacancy, my chance is getting slimmer by the minute, probably my resume is in the "keep for future consideration" tray already.

Ahem..."interesting" day today. Was at my hairdresser's place today ( finally got my haircut!) , then this auntie came and was talking to my hairdresser bout goat placentas. Oh yea, you read it right, GOAT and not human, and it's LIVE GOAT placentas. That auntie works for some plastic surgeon. ( according to my hairdresser, he's a real hunk ... my hairdresser is a 40-years-old mother of three...and she was practically drooling when describing him! and I wonder what's her definition of a hunk actually.. :P I believe she mentioned him for at least 3-4 times in that hour!) Anyway, that hospital is offering injection of goat placentas to make one feel rejuvenated and of course stay pretty. According to that auntie, it has some other benefits, as people grow older, than absorption of minerals to the body also lesser, then the placenta injection will actually fix that problem la..and bla bla bla...I just think that people go for that main reason: being young and beautiful. The conversation continues bout the customers there mostly are rich wives or those prostitutes ( both of them speculating that they are). Imagine the distance you will go just to feel pretty... ohh...forgot to mention that it's RM2000 per dose. At least a minimum of 2 dosage will only see the effect. That's the goat placenta rate, the human placenta rate is far lower. It was RM600 per dose... something new to know about. I still can't imagine how people will directly put that in their body system...Rich housewives with no where to spend their money I guess...

Enough of interesting and "interesting" facts today. Gonna call it a day, been a long one....

Mother, I Love You....

It's Mother's Day again...and mom also turns older too. Didn't stop and think of how old she is till I asked for the candles on her birthday cake.... Been a while since anyone took this day to really do something. Brothers are all in Singapore and I'm left here, so thought I'd get her a cake this year. Never get to really spent it with her on this day for the past 4-5 years, always had to be back in uni at that time. Anyway, it was just a simple dinner outing and cake cutting...but can see that she was all smiles, plus a call from her granddaughter also did the trick. YEAY...want to shout it out to the world.. I LOVE YOU MOM!

Surprisingly that it's easier to express it all in words. Rather than saying it. Never had this tradition at home to express our love to our parents or our siblings. A peck on the cheek would be a definite no since we've all had grown up, but you can see the affections pouring in to my little niece by all my family members. Frankly, even a hug had never been displayed among my siblings...felt weird to do it I guess. We joke, we laugh, we step on each other's foot, but we never do the hugs or kisses. And it's like so formal between us and probably everyone's used to the way things are, changes might just make things worse.

Anyway, probably it's the lack of closeness that it feels great and probably weird at some stage when I have a connection with another person/friend(be it guy or girl). Makes me wonder...and probably influences the way I perceive things. Especially those times when I get mixed signals from guys thinking they might be interested in me...which then lead to a whole lot of misunderstanding.

SO, in the end, yea...I think I would prefer that everything should be out in the open instead of the guessing game or the assumptions.( After all ...when you break the word ASSUME, it's just makes an ASS out of U and ME -courtesy of a lecturer of mine) I'll try harder to actually express myself out with my family members...think I might be in the comfortable zone too, don't really know what's it gonna be like, but been getting closer to my mom, and it feels great! and I'm gonna say again, Mom, I LOVE YOU!!

050505...wont happen again in another century

Yeapp..it's one of those days where you have the special date that won't come along till another century or so. Better make a mark then...wasn't that significant since I was pratically wasting the time away. Sigh...yeah...think I better get a job soon..

Anyways...have you ever thought of things that'll just come by once in your lifetime?? I had a friend who had to make this really tough decision ( I wonder whether he actually came up with one ) It's either

a) a fully sponsored research programme in Japan for a month and a half
b) a fully sponsored trip to Hong Kong
c) a stable working career somewhere in Ipoh ( no extension of starting date or he'll have to give it up)

Option (a) sounded real nice, but to do that, he'll have to give up his job and also his convocation ceremony. Option (b) didn''t sound bad either, but for this, he'll have to give up his job...and at that time, think he was thinking bout Japan also... and of course there's option (c) where he'll end up with his 9-5 job and thinking of the what-ifs. So it all depends on what's your priorities and are you actually wiiling to take risks.

For me, taking risks was never my thing...but I would like to believe that I took some along the way...the outcome? Not really what I expected, but it felt good after that. There are also risks that I didn't take, that kept me in the "what-ifs" situation till today. And it'll always be the "something" that happened once in your life and might not happen in years to come. Probably something to learn and think about when I'm old and starting to reflect on my life and all the decisions that I've made before. Well, if there's anyone out there who happens to be reading , dare to take that risk...( a bit of hypocrite on my side, but I did take some of the risks before, just that it's not my thing.. ) You'll never know what you can get out of it... ( been trying to put it all in my head...just hoping it sticks there..

So...to sum it up for this time, when there comes a chance to experience the once in your lifetime thing, be sure to grab that chance~! I wished I had more of it....things been mundane all my life...hoping and crossing my fingers for greater thing in the future !

I'm an unemployed graduate..with a sucky ADSL modem !

Okay...I know I said earlier that I want to keep this place alive, but things come along and got me drifted away. Attention span really needs to be fixed. Yeap...it's official, I'm a graduate ... UNEMPLOYED... ( yet) . I do hope I get some job to work on. In the mean time, been keeping myself all hooked up to my never-ending TVB dramas and some other shows that had been in my queue of to-be-watched list since months ago.

Anyway, didn't get to do much since I finished my finals. What happened since then was a farewell dinner, photo taking sessions, yumcha sessions, photo taking sessions, Singapore trip...well..which adds up to more photo taking sessions !! Had a CD just for Singapore trip. The farewell dinner was at Eastin Hotel. All pics not uploaded yet, so no chance of getting hold of the big group pic. There were 35 of us there that night. Everyone seemed to be leaving for Penang to work...can imagine that everyone will be bumping into everyone on weekends and night outs. Well, at least they have a job...sigh...

Finally had my broadband installed today...yesterday to be exact, it was only activated today. Slight confusion between 2 contractors handling it...who suffers? I DO! Parents...they nag and nag and nag....but then again, I know their good intentions, so not blaming them or anything. Just that, when problem occurs, I will know how to handle them. How come it's so hard for them to realise that? Anyway, almost lost 50 bucks to the installation thing...1 contractor took my 50 bucks, 2nd contractor said installation was suppose to be free...I was in shocked and already sending WTF sms-es to my friend assuming that I was some victim of some bogus contractor. But it all turned out okay, kinda freaked out a bit when the 1st contractor did not pick up their phone...thought I really became a victim. Finally I called the office, they kinda cleared it off for me...and unexpected return of my rm50 !! Was glad and all nagging ends at that point...although I did face some problems later that night bout online stuff, but kept it low profile and out of the knowledge of my parents.

That problem I mentioned, was that sucky ADSL modem. Called back the installation guy at 8.30pm...I know it's after office hours, but who says his work was done? As long as I couldn't online, he'll be on call even it's 12am!! He said the modem needs restarting every now and then just to make sure it works ! I was like..whhatt..?? The explanation: "Modem tu, you off untuk 10 secs, lepas tu, on balik. Modem tu, macam tu punya." I replied with a loud "har?" ..sigh...sucky modem!! restarted it twice already... well, let's hope it lasts longer than I expect it could.

That would be all for this time around, might want to catch up some TV shows before getting some shut eye.

The Return.!!

Sigh..can't believe this site died down that long! Well, been a long long 3 months down the road. and it's like 2 months to go before this university life ends. The ups and downs, been like the best years of my life in here. Kinda sad when we start to think that the friends you spend 5 years with are going off their separate ways... i know i know...nothing last forever ( except for diamonds! ) and of course I wish the best in whatever they'll be doing in the future. Just to shout out to everyone I know that I love you people and I will miss all of you!! :)

So, another year is here. 2005, didn't start off that good, since I was coughing my way counting down to the New Year. What is there to expect? The tsunami that happened kinda brought down all the celebrating mood, somehow there was another force that was bringing down the celebrating mood...still can't justify that. Been discussing with an old friend, and we came to a conclusion, might be the age factor. 20+ and feeling old already... This is NOT GOOD!

Chinese New Year was here and still is...today is day 8. Tonight..tomorrow morning to be exact, the Hokkien people will making offerings to the "Ti Kong". Bet the whole place will be a whole lot merrier...compared to hazy Cyberjaya. But it's okay, no point getting home also, cause in the end, I'll be inside the house and listening to the sounds of the firecrackers. And it'll end up to be a hush hush event and I would need to be back here tomorrow morning for class.

Anyway, ushering in the Year of Rooster, this should be the only new year so far that I got to spend with all my brothers at the same time. Been a while since that happened. Second brother is the one that needs to fly here and there come CNY. Although a short break, it was great having my niece back at home. You know, kids at her age are the most adorable, provided that she don't start to be cranky and demanding. She's learning pretty fast and kids say the darnest things.

The weather is killing me!!! Alrite..think need to make a stop for this entry, having a house with direct sunlight shining in is NO good. Will keep that in mind when I get myself a place of my own. ;)