Familiar phrase eh? Just got the mood to suddenly write this, friend was telling me to go sleep to forget bout the hunger I'm feeling, when I pushed off that idea, hence that familiar phrase came into the scene...which then led me to think, "Yea, what exactly am I waiting for?"
To begin to answer that, I just have that few thigns in my list now:
1) to get some reply ( yes or no, interview or total reject ) for the jobs I've applied for
2) to get a new car ... if that's ever possible with my unemployed state
3) my niece to get back from Singapore, can't imagine how much I missed her!
4) my downloads to finish ( sigh, getting lesser sources to do that already )
5) my friend to clear off the air bout some rumours that I've been hearing, ( not that big of a deal also if he would tell me on the phone, but he insisted..so I'm waiting for the day he comes to find me then )
6) my parents to stop nagging me bout almost anything
7) ( this slot was "an idea to write my blog")
8) my old friends to chat longer with me
9) people to stop going ga-ga over the new release of Star Wars
10) the best way to cure my boredom at home!!!
Can only think of that 10 at the moment, don't get me started on things bout the future, the list will go on and on and on. Interesting to see my friend started with his blog site today, he should have started it like ages ago. He's someone I really look up to back in my uni days and he's always been there for me when I have those sucky times trying to interpret misleading signs left by guys. Well, the reason he has that blog was to become another version of "jeffooi". If you're Malaysian, and regular with the blogging thingy, you would know who is Jeff Ooi. Anyhow, if you happen to be reading this and don't have a clue, will leave you with their blogsite links after this post. Guess it's been a tiring day also, was with parents to settle their visas and their stuff before heading to China early next month. Before I wrap it up, back to the title again,come to think of it, it could also be used as an encouragement too. So when you, at the moment, asked me that, I would say, "nothing...coz it's time to sleep." :) Have a good day tomorrow everyone...especially you!
Links
Utopia.net
Jeff Ooi
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
A poem for you....
Okay, wasn't that much of a productive day, still suck at my driving, need to get it right the next time already, cause I want to start driving by myself. Anyway, today had another round of nagging from parents. Desperately need to hear bout job interviews soon...probably a job offer. :D Keeping my fingers crossed then.
Anyway, got me thinking bout old times when parents started with the nagging. Kinda miss my Cyber home, where I have the freedom to do what I want....everything seems restricted at home. And was doing some searching over some old stuff I have the other day, and surprisingly, I found this poem that I composed for a guy that I happen to like at that time...( fyi, it didn't work out, coz the guy felt like we're better off as friends) I think I wrote this when he was feeling down at that time, kinda gave me that inspiration(it was never shown to anyone before this, thought I'd share it here) , and I kinda feel like dedicating it to a friend that happens to be sad over a small argument with his girlfriend. This may suck, so here goes:
Friends come, friends go,
Not many that actually follow,
Just wanted you to know,
I'll be the friend to share your sorrow.
Things you do, things you say,
Never fails to brighten up my day,
I will always hope and pray,
For your happiness everyday.
Being a joker at times,
I know it's not a crime,
Craps I learn to accept,
Coz knowing you is no regret.
When things don't seem right,
Face it with all your might,
With your friends at your side,
Supporting you all day and all night.
Remember what I told you,
Keep this poem, oh, please do,
Just a reminder to you,
Our friendship is indeed true.
Haha...it may suck but copyright reserved! Not much of a poet. Never came across my mind that someone whom I thought was happy-go-lucky would feel so sad, I could even sense it while chatting with him through Yahoo! messenger. But anyway, I'm hoping that he has a brand new happy day tomorrow. I hope everyone does too...
Anyway, got me thinking bout old times when parents started with the nagging. Kinda miss my Cyber home, where I have the freedom to do what I want....everything seems restricted at home. And was doing some searching over some old stuff I have the other day, and surprisingly, I found this poem that I composed for a guy that I happen to like at that time...( fyi, it didn't work out, coz the guy felt like we're better off as friends) I think I wrote this when he was feeling down at that time, kinda gave me that inspiration(it was never shown to anyone before this, thought I'd share it here) , and I kinda feel like dedicating it to a friend that happens to be sad over a small argument with his girlfriend. This may suck, so here goes:
Friends come, friends go,
Not many that actually follow,
Just wanted you to know,
I'll be the friend to share your sorrow.
Things you do, things you say,
Never fails to brighten up my day,
I will always hope and pray,
For your happiness everyday.
Being a joker at times,
I know it's not a crime,
Craps I learn to accept,
Coz knowing you is no regret.
When things don't seem right,
Face it with all your might,
With your friends at your side,
Supporting you all day and all night.
Remember what I told you,
Keep this poem, oh, please do,
Just a reminder to you,
Our friendship is indeed true.
Haha...it may suck but copyright reserved! Not much of a poet. Never came across my mind that someone whom I thought was happy-go-lucky would feel so sad, I could even sense it while chatting with him through Yahoo! messenger. But anyway, I'm hoping that he has a brand new happy day tomorrow. I hope everyone does too...
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Interesting + "interesting" day...
Hmm....interesting day today, had my first job interview ever...it was more of a chatting session, asking me bout uni life, why this and why that...he asked how long I spent online on the average, and I said 6 hours, there was a surprised look on his face, hmm, I wonder...if I would say more than that, don't really know how he'll respond. Anyway, the surprising question was asking me "You know what's Ohm's Law?"....he asked it in a teasing way, not sure what he wanted, came as shock also, ( Erm, I was expecting like other Laws or Theorems) . But I did manage to answer that. Then the interview lasted for half an hour. Quite an interesting experience. But working in Putrajaya was not really what I had in mind...and the people around me are talking as if I've got the job, well..truthfully, I thought my performance was a so-so only...and knowing the people I'm up against for this vacancy, my chance is getting slimmer by the minute, probably my resume is in the "keep for future consideration" tray already.
Ahem..."interesting" day today. Was at my hairdresser's place today ( finally got my haircut!) , then this auntie came and was talking to my hairdresser bout goat placentas. Oh yea, you read it right, GOAT and not human, and it's LIVE GOAT placentas. That auntie works for some plastic surgeon. ( according to my hairdresser, he's a real hunk ... my hairdresser is a 40-years-old mother of three...and she was practically drooling when describing him! and I wonder what's her definition of a hunk actually.. :P I believe she mentioned him for at least 3-4 times in that hour!) Anyway, that hospital is offering injection of goat placentas to make one feel rejuvenated and of course stay pretty. According to that auntie, it has some other benefits, as people grow older, than absorption of minerals to the body also lesser, then the placenta injection will actually fix that problem la..and bla bla bla...I just think that people go for that main reason: being young and beautiful. The conversation continues bout the customers there mostly are rich wives or those prostitutes ( both of them speculating that they are). Imagine the distance you will go just to feel pretty... ohh...forgot to mention that it's RM2000 per dose. At least a minimum of 2 dosage will only see the effect. That's the goat placenta rate, the human placenta rate is far lower. It was RM600 per dose... something new to know about. I still can't imagine how people will directly put that in their body system...Rich housewives with no where to spend their money I guess...
Enough of interesting and "interesting" facts today. Gonna call it a day, been a long one....
Ahem..."interesting" day today. Was at my hairdresser's place today ( finally got my haircut!) , then this auntie came and was talking to my hairdresser bout goat placentas. Oh yea, you read it right, GOAT and not human, and it's LIVE GOAT placentas. That auntie works for some plastic surgeon. ( according to my hairdresser, he's a real hunk ... my hairdresser is a 40-years-old mother of three...and she was practically drooling when describing him! and I wonder what's her definition of a hunk actually.. :P I believe she mentioned him for at least 3-4 times in that hour!) Anyway, that hospital is offering injection of goat placentas to make one feel rejuvenated and of course stay pretty. According to that auntie, it has some other benefits, as people grow older, than absorption of minerals to the body also lesser, then the placenta injection will actually fix that problem la..and bla bla bla...I just think that people go for that main reason: being young and beautiful. The conversation continues bout the customers there mostly are rich wives or those prostitutes ( both of them speculating that they are). Imagine the distance you will go just to feel pretty... ohh...forgot to mention that it's RM2000 per dose. At least a minimum of 2 dosage will only see the effect. That's the goat placenta rate, the human placenta rate is far lower. It was RM600 per dose... something new to know about. I still can't imagine how people will directly put that in their body system...Rich housewives with no where to spend their money I guess...
Enough of interesting and "interesting" facts today. Gonna call it a day, been a long one....
Monday, May 09, 2005
Mother, I Love You....
It's Mother's Day again...and mom also turns older too. Didn't stop and think of how old she is till I asked for the candles on her birthday cake.... Been a while since anyone took this day to really do something. Brothers are all in Singapore and I'm left here, so thought I'd get her a cake this year. Never get to really spent it with her on this day for the past 4-5 years, always had to be back in uni at that time. Anyway, it was just a simple dinner outing and cake cutting...but can see that she was all smiles, plus a call from her granddaughter also did the trick. YEAY...want to shout it out to the world.. I LOVE YOU MOM!
Surprisingly that it's easier to express it all in words. Rather than saying it. Never had this tradition at home to express our love to our parents or our siblings. A peck on the cheek would be a definite no since we've all had grown up, but you can see the affections pouring in to my little niece by all my family members. Frankly, even a hug had never been displayed among my siblings...felt weird to do it I guess. We joke, we laugh, we step on each other's foot, but we never do the hugs or kisses. And it's like so formal between us and probably everyone's used to the way things are, changes might just make things worse.
Anyway, probably it's the lack of closeness that it feels great and probably weird at some stage when I have a connection with another person/friend(be it guy or girl). Makes me wonder...and probably influences the way I perceive things. Especially those times when I get mixed signals from guys thinking they might be interested in me...which then lead to a whole lot of misunderstanding.
SO, in the end, yea...I think I would prefer that everything should be out in the open instead of the guessing game or the assumptions.( After all ...when you break the word ASSUME, it's just makes an ASS out of U and ME -courtesy of a lecturer of mine) I'll try harder to actually express myself out with my family members...think I might be in the comfortable zone too, don't really know what's it gonna be like, but been getting closer to my mom, and it feels great! and I'm gonna say again, Mom, I LOVE YOU!!
Surprisingly that it's easier to express it all in words. Rather than saying it. Never had this tradition at home to express our love to our parents or our siblings. A peck on the cheek would be a definite no since we've all had grown up, but you can see the affections pouring in to my little niece by all my family members. Frankly, even a hug had never been displayed among my siblings...felt weird to do it I guess. We joke, we laugh, we step on each other's foot, but we never do the hugs or kisses. And it's like so formal between us and probably everyone's used to the way things are, changes might just make things worse.
Anyway, probably it's the lack of closeness that it feels great and probably weird at some stage when I have a connection with another person/friend(be it guy or girl). Makes me wonder...and probably influences the way I perceive things. Especially those times when I get mixed signals from guys thinking they might be interested in me...which then lead to a whole lot of misunderstanding.
SO, in the end, yea...I think I would prefer that everything should be out in the open instead of the guessing game or the assumptions.( After all ...when you break the word ASSUME, it's just makes an ASS out of U and ME -courtesy of a lecturer of mine) I'll try harder to actually express myself out with my family members...think I might be in the comfortable zone too, don't really know what's it gonna be like, but been getting closer to my mom, and it feels great! and I'm gonna say again, Mom, I LOVE YOU!!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
050505...wont happen again in another century
Yeapp..it's one of those days where you have the special date that won't come along till another century or so. Better make a mark then...wasn't that significant since I was pratically wasting the time away. Sigh...yeah...think I better get a job soon..
Anyways...have you ever thought of things that'll just come by once in your lifetime?? I had a friend who had to make this really tough decision ( I wonder whether he actually came up with one ) It's either
a) a fully sponsored research programme in Japan for a month and a half
b) a fully sponsored trip to Hong Kong
c) a stable working career somewhere in Ipoh ( no extension of starting date or he'll have to give it up)
Option (a) sounded real nice, but to do that, he'll have to give up his job and also his convocation ceremony. Option (b) didn''t sound bad either, but for this, he'll have to give up his job...and at that time, think he was thinking bout Japan also... and of course there's option (c) where he'll end up with his 9-5 job and thinking of the what-ifs. So it all depends on what's your priorities and are you actually wiiling to take risks.
For me, taking risks was never my thing...but I would like to believe that I took some along the way...the outcome? Not really what I expected, but it felt good after that. There are also risks that I didn't take, that kept me in the "what-ifs" situation till today. And it'll always be the "something" that happened once in your life and might not happen in years to come. Probably something to learn and think about when I'm old and starting to reflect on my life and all the decisions that I've made before. Well, if there's anyone out there who happens to be reading , dare to take that risk...( a bit of hypocrite on my side, but I did take some of the risks before, just that it's not my thing.. ) You'll never know what you can get out of it... ( been trying to put it all in my head...just hoping it sticks there..
So...to sum it up for this time, when there comes a chance to experience the once in your lifetime thing, be sure to grab that chance~! I wished I had more of it....things been mundane all my life...hoping and crossing my fingers for greater thing in the future !
Anyways...have you ever thought of things that'll just come by once in your lifetime?? I had a friend who had to make this really tough decision ( I wonder whether he actually came up with one ) It's either
a) a fully sponsored research programme in Japan for a month and a half
b) a fully sponsored trip to Hong Kong
c) a stable working career somewhere in Ipoh ( no extension of starting date or he'll have to give it up)
Option (a) sounded real nice, but to do that, he'll have to give up his job and also his convocation ceremony. Option (b) didn''t sound bad either, but for this, he'll have to give up his job...and at that time, think he was thinking bout Japan also... and of course there's option (c) where he'll end up with his 9-5 job and thinking of the what-ifs. So it all depends on what's your priorities and are you actually wiiling to take risks.
For me, taking risks was never my thing...but I would like to believe that I took some along the way...the outcome? Not really what I expected, but it felt good after that. There are also risks that I didn't take, that kept me in the "what-ifs" situation till today. And it'll always be the "something" that happened once in your life and might not happen in years to come. Probably something to learn and think about when I'm old and starting to reflect on my life and all the decisions that I've made before. Well, if there's anyone out there who happens to be reading , dare to take that risk...( a bit of hypocrite on my side, but I did take some of the risks before, just that it's not my thing.. ) You'll never know what you can get out of it... ( been trying to put it all in my head...just hoping it sticks there..
So...to sum it up for this time, when there comes a chance to experience the once in your lifetime thing, be sure to grab that chance~! I wished I had more of it....things been mundane all my life...hoping and crossing my fingers for greater thing in the future !
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
I'm an unemployed graduate..with a sucky ADSL modem !
Okay...I know I said earlier that I want to keep this place alive, but things come along and got me drifted away. Attention span really needs to be fixed. Yeap...it's official, I'm a graduate ... UNEMPLOYED... ( yet) . I do hope I get some job to work on. In the mean time, been keeping myself all hooked up to my never-ending TVB dramas and some other shows that had been in my queue of to-be-watched list since months ago.
Anyway, didn't get to do much since I finished my finals. What happened since then was a farewell dinner, photo taking sessions, yumcha sessions, photo taking sessions, Singapore trip...well..which adds up to more photo taking sessions !! Had a CD just for Singapore trip. The farewell dinner was at Eastin Hotel. All pics not uploaded yet, so no chance of getting hold of the big group pic. There were 35 of us there that night. Everyone seemed to be leaving for Penang to work...can imagine that everyone will be bumping into everyone on weekends and night outs. Well, at least they have a job...sigh...
Finally had my broadband installed today...yesterday to be exact, it was only activated today. Slight confusion between 2 contractors handling it...who suffers? I DO! Parents...they nag and nag and nag....but then again, I know their good intentions, so not blaming them or anything. Just that, when problem occurs, I will know how to handle them. How come it's so hard for them to realise that? Anyway, almost lost 50 bucks to the installation thing...1 contractor took my 50 bucks, 2nd contractor said installation was suppose to be free...I was in shocked and already sending WTF sms-es to my friend assuming that I was some victim of some bogus contractor. But it all turned out okay, kinda freaked out a bit when the 1st contractor did not pick up their phone...thought I really became a victim. Finally I called the office, they kinda cleared it off for me...and unexpected return of my rm50 !! Was glad and all nagging ends at that point...although I did face some problems later that night bout online stuff, but kept it low profile and out of the knowledge of my parents.
That problem I mentioned, was that sucky ADSL modem. Called back the installation guy at 8.30pm...I know it's after office hours, but who says his work was done? As long as I couldn't online, he'll be on call even it's 12am!! He said the modem needs restarting every now and then just to make sure it works ! I was like..whhatt..?? The explanation: "Modem tu, you off untuk 10 secs, lepas tu, on balik. Modem tu, macam tu punya." I replied with a loud "har?" ..sigh...sucky modem!! restarted it twice already... well, let's hope it lasts longer than I expect it could.
That would be all for this time around, might want to catch up some TV shows before getting some shut eye.
Anyway, didn't get to do much since I finished my finals. What happened since then was a farewell dinner, photo taking sessions, yumcha sessions, photo taking sessions, Singapore trip...well..which adds up to more photo taking sessions !! Had a CD just for Singapore trip. The farewell dinner was at Eastin Hotel. All pics not uploaded yet, so no chance of getting hold of the big group pic. There were 35 of us there that night. Everyone seemed to be leaving for Penang to work...can imagine that everyone will be bumping into everyone on weekends and night outs. Well, at least they have a job...sigh...
Finally had my broadband installed today...yesterday to be exact, it was only activated today. Slight confusion between 2 contractors handling it...who suffers? I DO! Parents...they nag and nag and nag....but then again, I know their good intentions, so not blaming them or anything. Just that, when problem occurs, I will know how to handle them. How come it's so hard for them to realise that? Anyway, almost lost 50 bucks to the installation thing...1 contractor took my 50 bucks, 2nd contractor said installation was suppose to be free...I was in shocked and already sending WTF sms-es to my friend assuming that I was some victim of some bogus contractor. But it all turned out okay, kinda freaked out a bit when the 1st contractor did not pick up their phone...thought I really became a victim. Finally I called the office, they kinda cleared it off for me...and unexpected return of my rm50 !! Was glad and all nagging ends at that point...although I did face some problems later that night bout online stuff, but kept it low profile and out of the knowledge of my parents.
That problem I mentioned, was that sucky ADSL modem. Called back the installation guy at 8.30pm...I know it's after office hours, but who says his work was done? As long as I couldn't online, he'll be on call even it's 12am!! He said the modem needs restarting every now and then just to make sure it works ! I was like..whhatt..?? The explanation: "Modem tu, you off untuk 10 secs, lepas tu, on balik. Modem tu, macam tu punya." I replied with a loud "har?" ..sigh...sucky modem!! restarted it twice already... well, let's hope it lasts longer than I expect it could.
That would be all for this time around, might want to catch up some TV shows before getting some shut eye.
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